Elaine kok

累

2011-05-02T04:36:00.001+08:00

这段时间发生了很多事情，我好累好累。多么希望一切都没发生过。很多事情都在改变，我也很努力向上爬，无论是感情，亲情，友情或是我的未来。我学会了人生的道理，所以我更努力去追去我的梦想。

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对２０１０说再见　！

2011-01-06T03:36:00.002+08:00

我好久没写下我的心情在这了，今天突然很多东西想写。在2010年发生好多事情，好坏都有。。。好疲惫哦！不就前我遇上了两个让我印象深刻的男人，他们俩都是很受大家欢迎，喜爱，尊重的人。A男B男都是有女朋友，本来我是和A男在一起的，刚在一起的时候真的很开心，但过了一段日子后他少跟我通电话，我们也有一段时间没见面了。那时候的我每天都在等他的电话，想个白痴这样。。
而就在这个时候B男出现了，他的出现把我变得很开心，让我觉得很幸福，开心是暂时的，久了他也一样对我厌卷了。他不声的离开我，其实我和B男在一起是个错更不该认识，因为他和A男是好朋友，我把关系只会变的更复杂。
到最后我把B男跟我之间的事情一五一十告诉了A男，我知道他肯定对我很失望。
我不知道自己要的是什么?
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我对自己说不要再想你... 但我还是做不到！我还以为时间可以冲淡一切，但好像一天总比一天更加的想你了。

现在我只想对２０１０说再见！

"A dress that zips up the back will bring a husband and wife together."

2011-01-06T02:37:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah! I have to share some good news to everyone here. Congrats to my bestie shirley she is married :)

The proposal night

hen night

my eye look so small =.=

the only guy kkk XD

kee(my jimui)&men's uno second winner

koo & shirley

Shangri-la

The wedding dinner

then bintang palace

(Next time my marriage must be grand like her)

I pray so hard .

2010-11-28T00:06:00.003+08:00

How i wish you were here with me :(
Another 3 days is our 1st month anniversary, i never see you almost two weeks i guess, i miss you so much.
Everyday i pray so hard to see you..

"As I lay here with little to do,
My mind is filled with thoughts of you,
As I work hard throughout the day,
I miss your smile that's miles away,

As I lay down and try to sleep,
It's memories of you I shall always keep,
You must know this, my love so true,
I spend all my time just missing you."

When i knew that you're not in the mood, i sms you. Every msg to shows you i am care for you, and also to shows you that i am always support you no matter what.
Sometime i have bad temper, but i hope you understand my feelings, i always hope you will take a little time for me, but always i've got disappoint, but at least you will give me a calls when you cant.
I am happy enough to have you, i am even appreciate all the time when you come and see me although never more than one hours.
Sometime i will think what if out of sudden you'll tells me something i wouldn't want to know in my life, i am really not sure what it will happened i guess..

No matter how strong

"cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you can fall apart no matter how strong you think you are."

遗憾，祝福。

2010-08-18T05:25:00.000+08:00

在一起的时候觉得时间好象过了几十年，分开的时候，却觉得昨天才刚认识他。。。

还以为是幸福的，还以为是永远的，结果是暂时的，结果是开不了花的果。
你和我分手后，我却不伤心，没有眼泪
对我而言，留了遗憾。
如果我们能为大家让一步，退一步，那不是等于了海阔天空吗？
但这一切大概也是天注定了吧！
他不是我的白马王子。
我的白马王子是不可能让我受伤，哭泣。。。
一切一切都完了。
我会好好过我的日子，比起他更加好。
也在这祝福他好好的。

Situation.

2010-08-14T02:12:00.001+08:00

My friend's said : Sometimes, letting go is just another way of loving that special someone.
Its true. He is coming back in few hours time.. I miss him, i cant even fall asleep when he's not around..

Don't know what to write about. I'm gonna sleep early. Good night :)

一篇男人看了會沉默旳文章

2010-08-14T01:58:00.000+08:00

你可知道

要女人清晨醒來

淩亂的面對一個愛的人

是需要有很大的勇氣

你可知道

當女人被男人

脫去自己的衣服

一絲不掛的在他面前

是需要多少的愛

你可知道

女人爲什麽會背朝你睡

因為她不喜歡看你的背影

如果你以後抱著她睡

她會安心一整個晚上

你可知道

女人把每一次的愛情

當作是初戀

也是這輩子最後一個來愛

你可知道

女人那麼愛吃醋不是因為不相信你

而是你在她心中太美好

她不希望這種美好倒映在別的女人眼中

你可知道

深愛你的女人在沖你發火以後

自己卻轉身不斷啜泣

你可知道

當女人頂著哭花的臉

走在街上

不管是不是有人在看她時

她的心已經快要死了

你可知道

她只會對她愛的男人嘮叨

也只會對她在乎的人耍性子

你可知道

她的任性她的壞脾氣

其實都只是在對你撒嬌

希望你更重視她

你可知道

假若她不愛你

她根本不會對你發火

不會希望你去哄她

更不會為你掉眼淚

因為她不愛的人沒那本事

你可知道

當你離開她

留下她獨自一人

她有多大的期待和恐懼

而這一切都只是因為她愛你

而這一切都因為你還不夠懂她

女人知道太多不該知道的事情

男人不知道太多該知道的事情

於是，你們爭吵，你認為她脾氣不好，她認為你不夠遷就她……

於是，你們冷戰，你以為她沒有完全接受你，她以為你不在乎她……

請給她一個擁抱一個吻，用你的擁抱你的吻去化解她心裡的悲傷和眼角的淚水。

因為她只是害怕你的冷漠、轉身和安靜。。。。。。。。。。

兩個深愛的人在一起，就要

互相包容，互相理解，互相體諒，互相信任，

否則當你們真正失去時將會遺憾終生。。。。。。

否則美好的未來也就在你們自己手中泯滅了！。。。。。。

希望每一個男人都能夠好好珍惜陪伴在你身邊的女人

她們為你付出過，不求回報

卻希望你們能夠讀懂，能夠牽著她們的手堅定地走下去

不要讓愛你的女人流淚

不要讓她傷心

更不要讓她絕望和死心！

因為女人一旦真愛了，失去她愛著的人

就意味著失去了整個世界...

"i'll always be here whether you need me or not..

2010-08-12T07:37:00.006+08:00

Was nothing to do yesterday, i click on a app called Friend Interview is the facebook app. They asked a quiz what do you LOVE about Kevin Lim?

My answer is :
Caring & Loving. He's the best bf. No doubt, i love every part of him, every word that comes off his lips. Every moment when i am with him, talking to him in my head and finding myself through that light in his eyes? Everything I discover about him makes me love him infinitely more. I never thought he were out there, I never thought I could feel so known. He's everything to me and I'm the luckiest girl in the world to get to hold his hand.

It was love in first sight,and from that day on the only thing i thought about was him ♥

The day i went out.

2010-08-11T01:25:00.001+08:00

Just reach home :D This afternoon i went to karoek with meng , keita, kousuke, thanks to them bring me so much happiness. Its been quite a long time never had this kind of feeling... But deep inside my heart i can still feel very bitter, i still never receive any calls from him i miss him so badly and i don't know how to express it out. Finally myself now make up my mind's, i know what's my decision, i would never give up any chances. Although is so hard, hurt and painful but i'll stay strong.

I never stop thinking about him after he left, every seconds, every minutes, every hours even everyday. I just cant stop thinking of you this is how much i miss you <3

emotion

2010-08-08T05:29:00.003+08:00

Just reach home from phuture and deluxe.
Not that fun actually, because i miss him ;(

He went to genting this evening staying over two days one night and he is going back to kelantan until 14th. I'm gonna miss him like crazy.
After he planned actually never tell me about it, he been telling all his friend's but not me ;(
Nowadays the way he treat me unlike before, i am quite down because of this.
After he left i didn't receive any calls and message from him...
11 d a y s more is our 2 month anniversary <3
Anyway im gonna off to bed right now, tomorrow with bunch of friends are going to play paintball :D

这些话也许是你一生都在寻找的

2010-07-28T23:06:00.004+08:00

1。莎士比亚说:   再好的东西都有失去的一天。再深的记忆也有淡忘的一天。再爱的人，也有远走的一天。再美的梦也有苏醒的一天。该放弃的决不挽留。该珍惜的决不放手，分手后不可以做朋友，因为彼此伤害过！也不可以做敌人，因为彼此深爱过

2。几米说:   当你喜欢我的时候，我不喜欢你,当你爱上我的时候，我喜欢上你, 当你离开我的时候，我却爱上你,是你走得太快，还是我跟不上你的脚步, 我们错过了诺亚方舟,错过了泰坦尼克号,错过了一切的惊险与不惊险,我们还要继续错过. 我不了解我的寂寞来自何方，但我真的感到寂寞。你也寂寞，世界上每个人都寂寞，只是大家的寂寞都不同吧。

3。刘心武说:   不要指望，麻雀会飞得很高。高处的天空，那是鹰的领地。麻雀如果摆正了自己的位置，它照样会过得很幸福！

4。亦舒说:   人们日常所犯最大的错误，是对陌生人太客气，而对亲密的人太苛刻，把这个坏习惯改过来，天下太平。

5。郭敬明说:   我终于发现自己看人的眼光太过简单,我从来没有去想面具下面是一张怎样的面容,我总是直接把面具当做面孔来对待,却忘记了笑脸面具下往往都是一张流着泪的脸..

6。刘心武说:   对不起是一种真诚，没关系是一种风度。如果你付出了真诚，却得不到风度，那只能说明对方的无知与粗俗！

7。韩寒说:   再累再苦就当自己是二百五再难再险就当自己是二皮脸

8。安妮宝贝说:   当一个女子在看天空的时候，她并不想寻找什么。她只是寂寞。

9。遇见平凡说:   缘分像一本书。翻的不经意会错过童话读得太认真又会流干眼泪。”

10。张小娴说:   爱，从来就是一件千回百转的事。不曾被离弃，不曾受伤害，怎懂得爱人？

11。亦舒说:   无论怎么样，一个人借故堕落总是不值得原谅的，越是没有人爱，越要爱自己。

12。刘心武说:   与其讨好别人，不如武装自己；与其逃避现实，不如笑对人生；与其听风听雨，不如昂首出击！

13。张爱玲说:   娶了红玫瑰，久而久之，红玫瑰就变成了墙上的一抹蚊子血，白玫瑰还是“床前明月光”；娶了白玫瑰，白玫瑰就是衣服上的一粒饭渣子，红的还是心口上的一颗朱砂痣。

14。三毛说:   一个朋友很好，两个朋友就多了一点，三个朋友就未免太多了。知音，能有一个已经很好了，不必太多，如果实在没有，还有自己，好好对待自己，跟自己相处，也是一个朋友...

15。雪小禅说:   我以为终有一天，我会彻底将爱情忘记，将你忘记，可是，忽然有一天，我听到了一首旧歌，我的眼泪就下来了，因为这首歌，我们一起听过。

16.郭敖说:   我们始终都在练习微笑，终于变成不敢哭的人。

17.三毛说:   不要害怕拒绝他人，如果自己的理由出于正当。当一个人开口提出要求的时候，他的心里根本预备好了两种答案。所以，给他任何一个其中的答案，都是意料中的。

18.梓色心晴说:   男人哭了，是因为他真的爱了~ 女人哭了，是因为她真得放弃了~ 。”

19。玄漪说:   能够说出的委屈，便不算委屈；能够抢走的爱人，便不算爱人。

20。张爱玲说:   爱情本来并不复杂，来来去去不过三个字，不是我爱你、我恨你，便是算了吧、你好吗、对不起。

21。马云说:   晚上想想千条路,早上醒来走原路.

22。饶雪漫说:   这个世界欺骗了我，我必须给与还击，我不会放掉任何一丁点儿属于我的幸福，哪怕付出的代价是从此坠入地狱，我也在所不惜。

23。郭敖说:   每个人一生之中心里总会藏着一个人，也许这个人永远都不会知道，尽管如此，这个人始终都无法被谁所替代。而那个人就像一个永远无法愈合的伤疤，无论在什么时候，只要被提起，或者轻轻的一碰，就会隐隐作痛。

24。GARVEN说:   话是人说的，屁也是人放的，说话和放屁一样，都是一口气而已。。。

25。三毛说:   某些人的爱情，只是一种“当时的情绪”。如果对方错将这份情绪当做长远的爱情，是本身的幼稚。

26。张小娴说:   如果没法忘记他，就不要忘记好了。真正的忘记，是不需要努力的。

27。人非草木说:   再丑的人也能结婚，再美的人也会单身！~

28。张爱玲说:   因为爱过，所以慈悲；因为懂得，所以宽容   。

Suppost to live without you.

2010-07-25T07:44:00.001+08:00

7.30a.m. Actually i didn't sleep at all... He came home about 6a.m in the morning. I am really so down right now... What's the conclusion? I think i should leave, he don't even need me anymore ;(
He deleted message again, he promised me before he will never again.
Cried for you enough...

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All about life.

2010-07-22T06:41:00.000+08:00

My aunty just passed away on the june 18th, i was so sad about it and really miss her a lot... r.i.p my lovely aunt. I love you <3

All this while very busy with my future planned. Taken a 'Flight attendant preparatory course'. When i was young my dream is to become a air stewardess. My best friend vivian voo she's now at qatar work as a cabin crew, she suggest me to interview qatar airways so that we can work in the same company's, but too bad i went to the first interview i failed in cv submittion, they never choose me :( Second time they open interview at johor bharu i failed in the second stage. I was so sad and disappoint.

After came back from johor bharu my darling bought me a rabbit, my rabbit named bolster, and is a HIM. Bolster very naughty shit and pee everywhere, i have to clean every single day. Bolster sick few days ago, i was so worried about him, luckily i bring him to vet immediately and feed him medicine his fine now.

About my relationship my bf treat me very good, whenever i want something he'll do the best to make me happy, but i realize that he don't really understand me, i know there is no perfect people's in the world but i hope he can respect me sometime. Maybe he's over friendly or i really don't understand... All this while actually he make me jealous a lot, he never realize of it. Sometime i told myself do not let myself down, i even control my own feeling's.

他让我缺少了安全感，有时候我试着去相信他，但一次又一次的做出让我吃醋的事让我不敢相信而不是不要相信，在我的感情世界里我觉得自己很失败，完全是没有信心了。

I think i will stop here, because my baby bolster jump on the bed disturbing me...

HOMA

2010-07-19T22:11:00.000+08:00

HAPPY ONE MONTH ANNIVERSARY TO BABY KEVIN LIM <3

And tomorrow baby having exam wish him all the best :D

Our Heart Belong Together..

2010-02-26T21:50:00.002+08:00

Interchangeable we are
fitting each other some times,
Finding the one that works best
Is the challenge of loves crimes,

When do we know for sure
If the right fit is found,
Is it sitting quietly on the couch
Not having to talk or make a sound,

When conversation flows freely
And smiling is an ease,
Tension is a thing of the past
Love is made of moments like these,

When personalities click
and hearts fade together,
We stop looking further
Enjoying this feeling forever,

This is the love I seek
While sifting through the parts,
The day I met you My search ended
Bringing together our hearts

Another day.

2010-02-24T18:21:00.003+08:00

Feeling bad mood nowadays. After come back from ipoh and penang things happen non stop... No one know why and i just feel so suffer. Im gonna back to work soon, doesn't want to think so much. Sighhh! Done for writing.

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Crazy.

2010-01-12T11:44:00.003+08:00

If someone read my blog they will know that my engagement at my facebook its was fake, HAHAHA!!!

To be continue's.

2010-01-09T04:50:00.000+08:00

KL-Hatyai-Phuket-Krabbi-Penang-Ipoh.
KL-Hongkong-Guangzhou-Fasan.

Back to work again~
I am so excited to come home, hope to see someone, but at the end i have to wait for another weeks... :(
SIGH!!! Thought of going to club's tonight, been thinking for one hours and at last went to mamak yc with kee ce.
Im at home alone tonight, need someone accompany, lonely and stress.
I miss HIM a lot, I need HIM right now...
But all i can its just dreamt of it.

Falling with someone

2009-12-17T16:52:00.000+08:00

Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't?
Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't?
You fall deeper with each passing day,
But try to hide it in every possible way.
He's only a friend, and nothing else--
That's the lie you keeping telling yourself.
You keep on saying he's just a bud,
But deep inside, you're falling in love.
You get so giddy when you meet his eyes,
But keep reminding yourself it isn't right.
A simple glance turns into a stare,
But you pretend that you don't care.
It's "not right" for you two to be.
Is that why you hide it so no one can see?
But how long will you pretend?
Keep lying that he's just a friend?
Perhaps your feelings you can never show.
Perhaps it's "wrong" for him to know.
Your friendship can't be risked over this,
So being his girl is an impossible wish...

When a GIRL...

2009-12-17T16:45:00.000+08:00

When a GIRL is quiet,
Millions of things are running in her mind
When a GIRL is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply
When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of
questions,
She is wondering how long you will be
around
When a GIRL answers "i'm fine" after a
few seconds,
She is not at all fine
When a GIRL stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying
When a GIRL lays on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be hers forever
When a GIRL calls you everyday,
She is seeking for your attention
When a GIRL sms's u everyday,
She wants you to reply at least once
When a GIRL says I love you,
She means it
When a GIRL says that she can't live
without you,
She has made up her mind that you are
her future
When a GIRL says "i miss you",
No one in this world can miss you more
than that.

Tears.

2009-12-17T16:40:00.005+08:00

She is listening to the song ' Cry on my shoulder' right now...

Her tears roll down on her cheeks, she is missing him...
Her's body becoming weak without him...

"When I see your smile
Tears roll down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one "

i'm trying really hard not to cry over you because every tear is just one more reminder that I don't know how to let you go.

Good news or bad news?

2009-12-17T05:25:00.000+08:00

I hope my dreams will come true, if is we mights be saying goodbyes on that time...
Alex chan thank you for the helped, and you always my bestie listener.
Wish me Wish me...
Santacross i just want a small little present, can you just do this favor for me?
I wish i could...

Apologize.

2009-12-17T05:15:00.001+08:00

The girl started worry of him, she cant sleep for the whole night and she been thinking a lot... Should give up? She realize that actually she did not know him well, he actually love his gf a lot, he care about her a lot, he even can give the gf everthing she want.
She cant being so selfish, because she might be will hurt the one she loves. She want to apologize to them.

Goodbye to my love.

2009-12-16T15:44:00.000+08:00

He leave in the morning about 10a.m. She wake up at 7:30a.m immediately text him and wish him. She will wait for him to come back...

Lovin you

2009-12-15T20:46:00.004+08:00

Tomorrow he's leaving, she miss him a lot. Hope he is enjoying the trip with the girlfriend and the family's. The girl want to tell him that althought you have a girlfriend, but she will never give up him from now on... She wanted to tell him also he cant stop her for loving him, but he can stop himself to love her. She will promise him what he told her that day. "Take care my love."

A story about a girl.

2009-12-14T16:58:00.001+08:00

Her pain it will never opened to shows anyone.
This a girl who fall for someone that has a girlfriend, she never used to be a selfish before, but this time she did is all because she really love him a lot. She know this guy through her friend's, and her friend's told her not to go for him or else it get hurt's, she doesn't listen to this friend and she fall for him so deep, although their knowing each other its just a short term, but her's love to him is so strong. The guy who really complete her life she thought. The first day he came to her house and stay over, he ask her to brush her teeth, so cute. The first day they know each other she sleep with him... ... ... The second day she stay over his place, they having ... again, but he never end this, the girl start feelings weird. Third days that guy send her to her working place, he told her he is going to overseas soon, with his family, but actually she know it earlier and know that he is going to meet her girlfriend and its cause of the girlfriend mum's birthday. While he's hug her at the shop and told her that he feels guity because he has a girlfriend, she*tears* but she keep it never let the tears roll down in front of him, after that he *left*. She fell so upset because she actually know it before he told her, she know he will leave her one days, but she just didn't know it comes earlier than what she thought of it, and she cant take it kinda of feelings. That guy has text her and chill her up, but she tell him that "its okay! Its just lil bit hurt, don't worries about me." At night that guy fetch her from her work and go for dinner, usual still like previous days how he treat her. Caring and so loving her. She actually feel sad but act happy since he spend time with her. The next day actually that guy has promise her will come to fetch her after her work, but in the end that guy say he is busy, that girl has so disappoint because he is leaving in 2 more day to overseas! She thought of seeing him after work, and she know that's might be the lasts chance of seeing him, she don't know when can meet him again or else maybe she don't have the chance anymore. She know its time to say goodbyes to him. She really fell so upset about it.

(:

2009-11-20T00:59:00.000+08:00

Today i am having an good mood, at time i want to thanks to "ROLAND PHANG".
Just now i got one mail from someone, i am so suprise that this friend send me a quite long mail, and i never ever had this before. Thank you to this friend if you are seeing this.
Sleeping soon... Tomorrow gonna wake up early, nights.

The special one.

2009-11-19T01:07:00.001+08:00

I can't stop thinking of you, i tried to erase the memory about us, but i can't. This is the third day i did not sleep well, too much arounding my minds. I hate this!!!

Stress+Suffering

16th oct 09 - 16th nov 09.

2009-11-17T00:11:00.000+08:00

Currently i am having very bad mood this few days. Today is the first month that i knowing someone, time past so fast...
From the first day i realize myself that i have feeling on someone, but i didn't tell him about it. We met each other everyday after knowing, but after 2 week later, we don't really meet up! At least we still keep in touch with each other everyday, after came back from aussie we stop sms-ing.
Last night when you heard that i am sick and you promise me will come to see me today, about 9p.m you text and say that you cant make it because got something to do, i really feel so disappointed!
Sigh! My six sensse always sensse me the right thing, i feel different from you.
After today we will ends up everything.

The memory of us.
16th oct 09 - 16th nov 09.

A Vacation!

2009-10-29T23:56:00.000+08:00

I'm in the far far away land of Australia. Perth in more detailed. Having a small one week vacation with the aunt, visiting the cousins. I decided to switch blog names cause I want this to be public! There's a problem finding internet connection so I'll update when I get home next week. There'll be photos up too.

A new blog layout to keep a fresh look with the sexy black background. Thanks to the cousin!

Loves.

2nd days; Beautiful evening ♥

2009-09-04T18:29:00.000+08:00

Third message to baby, baby your voice are so sweet until i got melted ♥

Second message to baby

2009-09-03T20:22:00.001+08:00

Second message to baby, Baby i been thinking when can i meet you up again...?

1st day; i miss you and the memory set up in my mind 01/09/09

2009-09-03T18:24:00.003+08:00

Working Time Now
First message to baby,
Baby i miss you so much here. I just want you to stay, baby don't leave me. I don't want to live without you, I promise i will be here waiting for you until we have the fate to meet each other again... I heart you <3

Wish I was your lover
2009-08-19T04:45:00.003+08:00
Though it will be fine, but np =(
It's not worth it to cry, i will always remembered to be strong.

"Takin' Back My Love" - Enrique Iglesias feat. Ciara

2009-08-10T17:04:00.001+08:00

E & E

2009-07-29T03:47:00.003+08:00

July 27
You're moody...
I purposely come to quattro and see him, it was 7p.m.
Wait until he finish work then we went to yumcha at subang, actually i felt so tired the whole day, but because of you =)
Then until morning 6a.m we leave the place and you fetch me home, and he give me a kiss on my forehead. I am so happy.

July 28
We went to garden for a movie, and i am happy that watching movie with you =)
Because too bored nothing to do, even your off day we also hit to quattro, HAHA!
I love you <3

=) & <3

2009-07-26T19:37:00.002+08:00

This few week i am so hardcore almost a weeks 4 days hitting to quattro, because of you =)
Although we had no fate to be a couple, but at least i never regret telling you that i like you <3
Next week might be not so hardcore like the past few weeks, because i am sick right now...

I Happy =)

(一厢情愿) Don't get your hopes up, he doesn't like you.

2009-07-23T17:19:00.002+08:00

Yesterday as you promise me you'll put for me the song Lady Gaga- Poker Face and Micheal Jackson- You Are Not Alone, you never break the promise. HAPPY =)
But... I really felt so disappoint when i heard something bad about you =(
SIGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love life

2009-07-01T05:57:00.002+08:00

About my love life it's so complicated, all the past i had is really a bad times, all the memory remind me afraid this sentence, all the loves is about lies...
I cant trust anyone anymore, nothing is true.

怜惜，才是最真挚的爱情

2009-05-03T23:28:00.000+08:00

爱情是什么？爱情里面最重要的东西又是什么？在我们以为爱着的时候，常常是并不明白的。 www.6park.com

　　一个女孩子爱上一个男孩，她迷恋他那种满不在乎的神情，还有纯厚又带着磁性的男低音，她觉得他与众不同。男孩也迷恋她，说她身上有着都市女孩少有的清纯。他们恋爱了。有一天，女孩病了，她给他打电话，想让他去看她，但他说，他要去一个Party，感冒不要紧，休息休息就好了。又有一次，女孩被雨堵在路上，让他去接，他说他有事走不开，让她等等，女孩在雨中等了两个小时。 www.6park.com

　　后来女孩和男孩分手了，不是因为这些小事，是因为男孩又喜欢了别的女孩。 www.6park.com

　　女孩很伤心，但又没有办法挽回男孩的爱。 www.6park.com

　　不久，女孩遇上了一个比她大5岁的男人，他经常给他打电话，见了面却很寡言。他没有对女孩表白过什么，只发过一封用玫瑰图案衬底的样式漂亮的E- Mail，写了一句：“我每时都想感受到你的呼吸。”女孩想他爱上了自己。有一天，他又给女孩打电话，女孩说胃不舒服，要去医院。他立刻说我陪你去。女孩说不用，不严重。他没再说什么，女孩到医院的时候却发现他正等在挂号处。又有一次，女孩喝醉了，给他打电话，他放下电话，连夜开了几十公里的车去接她。他一点也没有责怪她，只是说：“喝醉了多难受，以后别这样。”女孩看到他的眼里满是关切。 www.6park.com

　　可是女孩始终没有爱上这个男人。他很无奈，他说：“本来我以为我可以照顾你，现在我们只好做个朋友了，如果你需要帮助，就告诉我，我一定会来的。”女孩看着他离去，想起她的初恋男友，明白了眼前这个男人才是真正爱她的。她读懂了他对她的感情里那种深切的怜惜。 www.6park.com

　　女孩在快30岁的时候认识了一个建筑师，他们相遇的感觉好像孤独者找到了陪伴者。他们在一起时，他总是用一种专注的眼神看着她，她有不顺心的事，他就想各种方法让她高兴，他做那一切的理由只是“我想让你开心”。她有一点咳嗽，他就天天叮嘱她吃药；她出门时，他总是说你要小心。所有的事都很平凡，但所有的事都在表明他对她的怜爱。女孩也喜欢他，但不清楚自己是不是真的爱他。直到有一天，他对她讲述以前失恋的创痛，告诉她，他这些年是如何在孤独中挣扎。他把头埋在她怀里，象一个孩子。女孩抱着他，一瞬间涌上无限的怜惜，她想她一定要对他好，再不让他感到孤独。后来女孩回想那一刻，承认那是她的爱情时刻，她从没有对一个男人有如此的怜惜，包括对她的初恋男友。 www.6park.com

　　女孩和建筑师的爱情就在相互的怜惜中日益深厚着，因为怜惜，他们彼此所做的一切都是为了让对方感到幸福和快乐；因为怜惜，他们不愿做一点伤害对方的事。他们从怜惜里生长的爱情足以让他们觉得彼此不可或缺，他们将相互爱怜着共度一生。 www.6park.com

　　女孩经过了很多年，才弄清楚什么是真正可信赖的爱情，是牢固持久的爱情。从前她把迷恋当成爱情，那是很多人在犯着的一个错误。迷恋也许只是爱情的初级阶段，或者仅仅是爱的萌芽。迷恋的同时，如果不能滋生出怜惜的情感，爱情就会迅速消失，因为迷恋消失的速度真的太快了。 www.6park.com

　　“迷恋”一个人的时候，迷恋者可以做出种种令人发晕的事，包括那些海誓山盟，甜言蜜语。有一个陷在热恋中的男孩给他所爱的女孩写道：“我的爱人，即使是要穿过千山万水、赴汤蹈火，也要赶到你身边，即使天打雷劈也要和你在一起，直到世界末日。”但在情书的最后，他附了一行字：“如果星期六不下雨，我就去接你。” www.6park.com

　　“怜惜”是另外一种成分的爱情。怜是爱怜，是深深的同情，惜是爱惜，是珍视，不舍得丢弃一丝一毫。有哲学家说：“爱在本质上是一种指向弱小者的感情。”怜惜正是这样一种最本质的爱，一种完全发自内心的愿为对方的快乐与幸福付出的心态。怜惜不是怜悯，怜悯是一种居高临下的施舍，带着一点优越和施惠的满足，而怜惜是从尊重和欣赏出发的温柔的呵护和给予，是无条件的，无私的。 www.6park.com

　　怜惜是爱人口渴时递上的一杯水，怜惜是出门时的一句叮咛，怜惜是爱人哭泣时张开的怀抱，怜惜是匆忙回家的路上脑中闪过的“如果我不回家，她就会睡不着”的念头，怜惜是爱人病痛时恨不得替她去痛的一种心情，怜惜是“只要他开心，我愿意做一切”的固执，怜惜是把他看作世界上最脆弱、最需要呵护的人。带着怜惜的爱情不虚饰，也不夸张，它在爱者的心中深深的驻扎着，随时准备给被爱者提供保护和温暖。 www.6park.com

　　有了怜惜的情感，就会象那个女孩和建筑师那样，不舍得做一点伤害对方的事，不愿意看到对方有一点不高兴，只想自己所爱的人能够一直感觉幸福快乐。为了这样的目标，他们就会互相取悦，互相满足对方的需求，把对方的利益置于自己之上，让对方感觉自己是爱人生命里最重要的人，将相扶相伴走过这一生。这就是建立在怜惜基础之上的最真挚的、最浓厚的、最牢固的、最持久的爱情。 www.6park.com

　　也许我们会象那个女孩子一样，要经历很多感情的波折，要走漫长的岁月，才最终能明白，我们真正该留住的、该珍视的是什么样的爱情。但我们不一定有女孩那样的幸福，我们可能早已错过那种深藏着怜惜却被我们忽略的情感。所以，在年轻的时候，在有最多的机会遭遇感情碰撞的时候，仔细去辨别一下那些感情的成分，看看里面到底有多少属于怜惜，那应该是爱情的试金石，可以帮我们留住真爱，淘汰伪爱。 www.6park.com

Silence

2009-05-03T19:53:00.006+08:00

Love ever
gives, forgives, outlives,
and ever stands
with open hands,
for while it lives, it gives.
For this is love's prerogative—
to give, and give,
and give."
=========================
Silence days...
Afraid and alone...
My heart is bleeding right now...
My mind is empty right now...
My tears are turning red...
I should not lies to myself anymore, tell myself wake up and wake up again...
It's too late to apologize...
We walked so hard when we was together, we hurt each other, we do love each other, we been through so much...
I'm sorry before that i did not think of your situation, and now i only realize that you're so sayang me all the times, i really feel so guity... You always asked me to listen to your words, and i did not take it serious was my fault.
All the love we made will never be earsed from my mind, whenever we fight my really feels pain. I'm willing to step my first to forgive him and said sorry to him.
My mood are up and down in this moment.
I am lost.
I"ll stop being nice again, stop being so stupid to begging someone, my tears will stops for you...

memory

2009-05-03T14:12:00.002+08:00

Totally lost myself =(

2009-04-28T18:45:00.003+08:00

Today we quarrel again, now we really break up. Without him i really don't know what i left now? I feel so sad, so hurt... When i saw he change the relationship status at facebook from relationship with elaine to single, i cant control my tears dropping... You told me before you will marry me in 3 year, is so "UNTRUE"!!! I HATE YOU doing this to me, what should i really do now? Its so PAINFUL

My Life Would Suck Without You

2009-04-18T23:25:00.000+08:00

Guess this means you're sorry
You're standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you'd never come back
But here you are again

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for tryin' to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way, I found out I'm nothing without you

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Being with you
Is so disfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you
But I can’t let you go
Oh yeah

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Beloved

2009-04-18T19:23:00.003+08:00

Sigh!!! No matters what i will calm down myself even though i am sad, before i love someone i have to learn how to love myself first... Whatever how the story goes on i will still be strong...

各位男生们,你们都听到女生的心声了吗?

2009-03-28T07:35:00.000+08:00

╰─★ ★從噺開始★ ╭★

╭~~~★ ╭︶ ╮

╱︶(o'.'o)︶╲╱︶(-'.'-) ︶╲

~︶ (~)_(~)`︶ (~)_(~)`︶~ ★

w〆シ寧願笑著流淚~oロ

wロ也不想哭著說後悔シ〆w.

其实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子在冲他们发火后自己转过身却在不断啜泣。

其实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子从来不会真正去生他们的气，因为她是真的喜欢他在乎他。

其实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子只会对自己喜欢的男生唠唠叨叨，也只会对自己喜欢的人耍性子。

你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会来在乎你关心你，怕你做错事情。

你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会对你发火不会冲你撒娇让你哄她，在别人面前她都是淑女。

你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，你根本就没有本事让她哭泣，让她即使生气也不会超过2天。

而这一切都只是因为她喜欢你，而这一切都因为你还不够在意她不够懂她。

于是，你们时常争吵，你认为她脾气不好，她认为你不够迁就她。

于是，你们总是冷战，你以为她不喜欢你，她以为你不在乎她。

于是，你们总是莫名其妙的彼此错过，也许擦身而过，本身就是一种悲伤着的无奈与幸福。

要知道，凄美依然是美的一种，并且美的绚丽悲凉而沧桑，那是更加的美。

因为她喜欢你，所以她偶尔冲你发火，时常对你撒娇。

因为她喜欢你，所以她才会生你的气；而又因为喜欢你，她才不会去生气很久。

你可知道，每个女孩子的心都是水晶做的，晶莹剔透，但是很容易就碰伤摔碎。

你可知道，每个女孩子都是不设防的，你那么轻易就闯进她的心，走的时候却只留下伤害。

她从来都不知道，这个世界上根本没有可以让她哭的人，因为真正值得她哭的那个根本舍不得让她哭。

她会很矜持，她会很骄傲，她会很冷淡，她总是嘴里说着你走开，心里却一直叫你留下。

请你张开你的耳朵，也请你打开你的心，去听她心里真正的呼唤，而不是她嘴里的口是心非。

她会看着你转身，然后她跟着你转身，当侧身而过的时候，你看不见她的泪，滂沱在脸上心里。

如果你喜欢她，请你多陪她；如果你喜欢她，请你多宠她；如果你喜欢她，请你多让她。

如果你喜欢她，请你去听听她内心的声音，那是呐喊——请拥抱她。

在爱情里，总是彼此伤害，彷佛这样才能证明自己爱得激烈爱到轰轰烈烈。

可是，爱情里没有孰对孰错；爱情里更加没有你比我多我比你少。

你爱她，她爱你，如此就已经足够。不要试图让彼此的伤害，让彼此更加脆弱悲伤。

你们彼此相爱，你们需要的是温暖是幸福是甜蜜是快乐，不是伤害。

不要用沉默宣战，不要互不相让，更不要什么话都不讲就冷漠离去。

要知道，你离去的时候，你的眼睛起了雾，她的眼角泛着泪光。

越是安静战火就越传，这是冷战也是彼此的伤害——无论是怎么的复合，那些伤口曾经存在，抹不去。

请跟她一个拥抱，用你的拥抱去化解她心里的悲伤与眼角的泪水。

她喜欢你，她绝对不会拒绝你的拥抱，她只会害怕你的冷漠转身无声安静。

请记住，相爱的人不要轻易宣战，因为冷战带来的伤害，超出你的预计。

也请记住，只要你喜欢她，没有什么是你接受不了的，只要你喜欢她，就喜欢她的一切一切。

那么她所有的小性子所有的坏脾气所有的臭毛病，在你眼里都是撒娇。

也请记住，她喜欢你，她需要的不是你真的转身，她嘴里说着的也不是她的真心话。

她只是想你宠她，想你抱她，哪怕，没有道歉

个人很喜欢,觉得说得很对~~

各位男生们,你们都听到女生的心声了吗?

There's was a nightmare

2009-03-21T07:46:00.003+08:00

Sigh! While I've been thinking why myself still did not trust him fully? I am afraid he'll leave me someday, afraid he'll go to other, i am over protect him and he don't know, i wont allow any girls or guys even my friends stick to him, because i afraid someone taken him, i just hate myself doing this and not giving him any freedom. I will even jealous someone who so near to HIM. I'd know myself are so selfish!!! I am a really fucked up girlfriend, maybe that is so called "LOVE" to me.

Sigh And Sigh Again =(

2009-03-17T04:31:00.003+08:00

Having a relationship is hard and bitter, sometime i really cant tolerate his ego.
Sigh!
My hubby is such a good guy, but sometime really cant tolerate with his ego, but i hope he can trust for our relationship. Darling are mad at me now, because of kaori. I said sorry to him just now, but he ignore me. Anyway as long as i love him he'll know i wont betray our relationship.

ALDO <3

2009-03-15T23:32:00.002+08:00

March 13

I went to sungei wang with akiyo and momoko, and i planning to buy a pair of 6 inch killer heels, but at last i didn't found any heels at sungei wang, so i bought a dress rm 110, bikini rm 63 and a free bra rm 49.90.

March 14

Liverpool VS Manchester 4-1
Me and patricia went to sungei wang, low yat hair saloon and pavilion gucci, zara and aldo. I bought 2 T- Shirt (rm 25) at sungei wang, long jeans (rm 89.90) at sungei wang and aldo killer heels (rm 516.90).

One month anniversary

2009-03-11T05:33:00.004+08:00

Today is our One month anniversary.
Don't know what to write here?
Has a lot thing to in my mind now, but i can't

Hard and bitter (Fuck off my life) "BITCH" I hate you

2009-03-05T06:23:00.003+08:00

Nightmare comes true...
OH MY GOD!!! You really a "BITCH" I HATE YOU
Today was a BAD and TIRED night, STRESS and FUCKED UP!!!
*&^%$#@!#$&*(*@#$%^
I can't even describe how is the feelings now.. ISHHHH!!!
You've never know and never knows.
These days is fucking a lot of stuff stuck in my brain, especially tonight.
Worst and worsts...
Hurt and pain...
I'm getting lost.
I am going to faint with all this shit.
I would like to ask you this question Me or Her?
I doesn't want to gave you depress or anything else..
I just need a break.
Leave me and Leave me again.
I don't want to get in trouble, i don't want things to happen again.
I just want to live with a peaceful place with you.
Silent and Romantic.
No argument, No sadness part.
First time i step so deep with a person like you, never ever fall apart like this before.
Tolerate you, Tolerate everything.
Not to repeat again and again.
I needed all is just a normal life.
Please comes and feel my feelings.
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Nothing else perfect

2009-03-04T04:45:00.002+08:00

These days been thinking so much, maybe i am not the one to him or we're not suitable for each other? I really don't know?! We quarrel too much, sometime i really cant take it. Sometime i ask myself should i still continues our relationship? I feel so difficult to live, and it's really hard. Today is the 3th weeks we'd together, do you know how many times we step into argument? " TOO MUCH "
I'd know myself can't live without you, so i calm down and told myself that not being so ego. I would like to live in peace forever.
Having relationship gave me depression and suffering.
I can't express how is my feelings now.
Do you know every words come out from you i take it so important? Sometime you use the word hurt me you don't know.
Do you know how's my feelings?
When i was alone i feel loneliness.
When we quarrel i feel like crying.
When you look cool i feel scary.
When you're mad i don't know what can i do?
All i want not to quarrel everyday and i hope someone spend times with me, loving and caring.
I even changed myself to tolerate you sometimes.

I really can't even describe my feelings in words at this moment, don't know what to wrote and what to do? Sigh! I need a rest.

Perfectly

2009-02-24T05:44:00.003+08:00

Sometime need to be strong, don't make yourself look down...
Whenever going out I'll bring all the happiness, I've never show anyone my sadness.
I hide my darkness world be hide me and no one's knows the story of mine.
I never want to face on the fact because is so scary, human life in every different age are keep on changing, cant look forward and walk to the next station.
When i am down i told myself do not look down, be strong! SUN ARE STILL SHINE, DAY ARE NOT ENDS YET. Still have a lot more to go, i cant let myself down so easily and cant give up myself.

Family,
Parents are always love their children.
I still can remembered how bad am i ?
I make my parent disappoint me, ponteng school, runaway from house, quarrel with my mom and a lot more... I cant imagine how stupid i am, i regret stop schooling, i miss school times, i miss my schoolmate. Because of my mistakes i saw their love, and caring.

Friendship,
Good friends and Bad friends?
Good friends their always love you like your family, when you do mistakes they'll screw you, and teach you a lot, from you mistakes until the correct, but when you make them disappoint on you, they'll get away from you.
Bad friends they always lies, be a backstabbers, act like a Bastards...

Relationship,
Trust, caring and loving
Trust your another half before you say I LOVE YOU
Care your beloved before you say I LOVE YOU
If you trust and care your beloved, i sure you can live in peace forever until the end of times with your beloved.
There's a love that cannot lie
Love is strong
It only cares of joyful giving
If we try we shall see
In this bliss we cannot feel
Fear or dread
We stop existing and start living, then it feels that always
Love's enough for us growing
So make a better world

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Darling although is just two week times but i am glad to be with you, but i hope that i am not giving you depress. I know having a relationship is hard sweet and sometimes it is even bitter. I'm willing to sharing it all with you. I do love you.

Think twice

2009-02-18T07:13:00.002+08:00

In the morning 7:14a.m i still can't really sleep yet... I've been thinking a lot these days, my love story, my family, my jobs. All about my love story is unfaithfull unsucessful, whenever end up the story it make people's feel hurt and painful. Now i with this guys called nic lim ming yao, 25 years old. He is good and really caring person. Althought we together just a short term but i can feel that he is really care and love me, eventhought i know he is depress and stress something else. Whenever he is working or i am not beside him he feel worried, he scare i'm hungry, and scare i bored at home. He hug me and kiss me when i'm beside him, but sometime i feel sorry because i know i am not a good girlfriend as well, but i'll do all my best to make him happy.
Do you guys know why my title is "think twice"?
If i never step in modelling worlds maybe i feel happy with him, but my dream is in two years become a top models. He is from modelling world's too, and a long long journey.....
If most of the friends know it will make story out... I don't want things will go worst, I don't want hurt him or me =(
Some people's out there maybe wasn't like us to be a couple, when they knows it will make things worst and things maybe will changed.
No ones know what will happend tomorrow?
I doesn't know too...
My six sensse told me that thing's changing like the day going to end...
I hope everything gonna be fine.
I hope to tell the whole world's that we're together.
I hope to let you hear my heart that i really do love you, if can i hope our love never end.
One thing i don't hope to lose you.

What I've Done

2009-02-16T04:34:00.002+08:00

4:35a.m we still not talking with each other... I really don't know what can i do right now? SIgH! Can't even sleep at all...

Is the bad times coming soon again? Elaine said: I don't know

2009-02-16T02:53:00.004+08:00

Darling look very down just now... Is it because i talk about Darren khoo? But i don't even have feeling on darren khoo anymore. Everything is past. I bring darling go club9 play pool just now, i want to go there is all because i like the table there, never mean anything. SIgh!! OH! GOD! It make me down too... Hate this kind of feeling!!!! =( What can i do now? I don't even know how to be a good girlfriends, i don't even care my boyfriends feelings, stupid ME =(

happiness

2009-02-15T18:58:00.003+08:00

Yesterday my bf come back in the afternoon, and he bought me chocolate, but all i want and i hope is he can spend time with me... He always busy with his work, so really no time to spend time with me. Yesterday i called jessica out, she told me if i mind to join her friend or not? Then at night we went to sunway pyramid and take our dinner, OMGGG!!! All the restaurent is full, actually we wanted to eat japanese food, but is full so at last we went to DRANGON-I. After that we plan to go club9 and play pool, wasn't that nice, because all of us are single on valentine day's. In a while Jess say she have to go home, because she got second round, and then i went to rocky place have a alcohol... Around 3a.m i went home, and this afternoon darling cook for me, he said yesterday he didn't accompany me celebrate so he cook me lunch... I feel touch and sweet...

I feeling not well and feel so down

2009-02-14T02:19:00.002+08:00

I feeling not well now, i think i am gonna sick again... SIgh! The whole body is weak right now... I don't want get high fever on valentine day's. 14th feb 2009, darling told me that he is working and this year i wont be celebrating valentine's day. Is quite down, i still remember the first time i celebrate with jeff and never ever celebrate again, because every valentine day's i am single... It's okay! Work is more important, i wont angry.
Darling, just now i doesn't mean that, and i am not angry. It's because these days i am seriously so down, and i really feeling not well, i am so sorry. Forgive me...

Misunderstanding

2009-02-11T03:35:00.003+08:00

Misunderstand?

Misunderstand? I though it was real? i though not a dream, i though and i though...

一场开心，一场梦。。。也是一个误会！！！虽然有点不开心，但算了吧！

DOWN DOWN DOWN!!!

2009-02-02T02:37:00.004+08:00

I am alone at home now, and i still cant calm down myself... Today feel so moody, moody until i getting crazy. I am lying to myself, i told myself to give up everything, forget about him. I asking myself why am i loving you so deep? WHY WHY WHY? He hurt me in so deep... He kill me in so deep... All in my mind now is our memory only. This morning i was playing poker, i left 100k and play, until this evening i have won 23m, and just now after talk to you i left 100k back. OMGGG!!! I getting crazy.after this i hope u don't find me anymore, and don't even talk to me, you hurt me in so deep, every single memory, every single word you talk to me also it will hurt me, so please don't talk to me, from today i will delete your contact in my list, bye...

欢子 - 得到你的人却得不到你的心歌词作词：欢子
作曲：欢子
演唱：欢子
你迷人的眼神俘虏了我的心
我想没有什么东西比这更致命
我努力想结束这段迷失的感情
可我发现没有勇气和你说再见
难到注定爱上你最后伤的是自己
难道注定这一切将是回忆
你的心不属于我为何和我在一起
是不是因为寂寞和空虚
如果我得到你的人却得不到你的心
就算得到全世界也不开心
我想问一问你能否爱我一次
遗憾我并不是你唯一
如果我失去这一切能换来你的真心
就算失去全世界也不伤心
我以为人一起心就会在一起
可怜我还一直为你钟情
你迷人的眼神俘虏了我的心
我想没有什么东西比这更致命
我努力想结束这段迷失的感情
可我发现没有勇气和你说再见
难到注定爱上你最后伤的是自己
难道注定这一切将是回忆
你的心不属于我为何和我在一起
是不是因为寂寞和空虚
如果我得到你的人却得不到你的心
就算得到全世界也不开心
我想问一问你能否爱我一次
遗憾我并不是你唯一
如果我失去这一切能换来你的真心
就算失去全世界也不伤心
我以为人一起心就会在一起
可怜我还一直为你钟情
如果我得到你的人却得不到你的心
就算得到全世界也不开心
我想问一问你能否爱我一次
遗憾我并不是你唯一
如果我失去这一切能换来你的真心
就算失去全世界也不伤心
我以为人一起心就会在一起
可怜我还一直为你钟情
我以为人一起心就会在一起
可怜我还一直为你钟情

郑源-怎么会狠心伤害我 lyrics
每个孤独的晚上
就象电影的散场
身边的人都离开
不知何时有泪光
每个相爱的地方
都象回忆织的网
多少痛苦关在胸膛
谁能看出我的伤
━━≡music≡━━
当我松开你的手
眼泪离开眼眶后
喝下沉溺的烈酒
醒来最终要接受
当爱散落的时候
何谓天长和地久
痛苦了一生的时间
是否明白是否足够
怎么会狠心离开我
这一切到底为什么
分不清一切都是谁的错
付出换来这种结果
怎么会狠心伤害我
可怜我爱你那么多
失去了快乐幻灭了承诺
守住两个人的日子一个人过

We're getting far...

2009-02-01T02:48:00.002+08:00

I just came back from my auntie house, and today i still the same...

Moody!!! I hate this kind of feeling, today my friend call me and chat, so i ask him about chelim, he told me chelim is in genting right now? I can feel that chelim forget about me already, he is enjoining now, and i still calm down. Sigh!!!! What can i do now?

End of the story

2009-01-30T05:22:00.004+08:00

Story end, our love end, everything end...
Che lim , although we just together a short term, but it's going to 4 weeks, i used to you by my side but now i really feel weird and uncomfortable, we had fun times together, we had sweet times together and we also had some hard times together, and this is the second time you say break up, i know we can't fall in love with each other barely, so i respect your decision. The first time after you say break up with me, i know it will happen again, and i fully prepared to face the facts. I decide to give up everything, to me it doesn't make me feel painful anymore, and i've never cried. Because i love you so, i forgot the pain, and the tears are stop row down anymore. You're the second guys I've loved. I have to say thank you to you, because you make a good decision, we're not suitable together so break up is the best choice, i hope you wont regret that you want to end up this, the last thing i want to say to you, Darling, i do love you.

The Love

2009-01-23T02:36:00.002+08:00

I've been thinking a lot these day, because i am just afraid to lose him <3
People's were guessing we're only can last one month, myself hope to go until the end of times. Chelim i going to crazy because of you. I putting all my love all over you, and the feelings could be so strong. Can you feels it yourself?

To:Chelim

2009-01-19T16:24:00.002+08:00

Che lim i want to show to everyone that how much i love you?

chelim i love you, and i never let you go. All the love we made will never be erased. i'll be with you as long as you want me to. Until the end. From the day i met you i know we'd be together and now i want to be with
you until the end of the time.I love you so much each and every single day. Although we always argue with small matter, but i know both of us don't want to be like that... We had fun times together, we had sweet times together and we also had some hard times together.
I'm used to you always by my side, and when you're not around i feel so different now. So uncomfortable. I don't want you to leave me from now. I want to live in peace forever until the end of times. I do love you so. I want you to know i can't live without you chelim, And i hope you feel the same too.
No one can replace you deep inside of my heart. This i can swear to you i do really love you <3

说好的幸福呢？

2009-01-18T20:41:00.003+08:00

Darling, i doesn't know what was going on? What you have told me before i still remembered, chelim 说好的幸福呢？SIgh! The whole day i feel so down, is like something going to happen... In the afternoon i keep on calling you, but cant get through, is out of coverage area. I waited for you to call me but you didn't, after awhile you use someone number to text me, chelim:"Elaine im chelim. I feel we are not suitable together as we always argue with some small matter. We just be friend okay?" *MOODY* The end up i only feel hurt...

Feelings come and go...

2009-01-12T23:10:00.004+08:00

Yesterday i was accompany chelim at his working place, i was sitting down there playing texas poker, suddenly got 3 people walk pass me, and i have very bad feeling, after awhile 2 of them keep on stare on me, my six sense tell me that one of them is chelim ex gf and one of them is the ex gf sister, and another one is chelim boss. Around 1a.m chelim going to closed and went home, but the ex gf suddenly walked to him and talk to him, chelim doesn't want to talk to her, so he walked off, that girl keep on follow him to go everywhere and keep on pulling him, i do hurt when this kind of thing happen, but i just act like normal... After they talked finish then we went home, reach home chelim were asking me am i angry of him, and i said ya! Because he didn't really settle down his own problems, it's unfair for me... Don't know what to say anymore, sigh!!!

The Life

2009-01-11T20:39:00.004+08:00

I think i should update my blog...

My location now at cheras tmn connaught 118 food court, accompany chelim at his working place,is a bit bored right here...

I just come back from seremban since last week, i went to seremban around 1 month, happiness and sadness memory at seremban, this is my first time to seremban, and is a contest about MISS MALAYSIA TOURISM QUEEN INTERNATIONAL at seremban era walk, i'am one of the contestant and i get in to the finalist, but i didn't get any prize, it's okay =) Just take it as a experince, this competition even make me get to know a lot of friend and make me learn alot... One of the contestant she treat me really nice, nice to know her, but i make her disappoint on me, she doesn't like my attitude. Sorry kate i knew my attitude is really hard to accept it, but i will try my best to changed this kind of bad attitude, and i want to say thank you to sky here, he really take of me in this one month time... When i was sad he talked to me a lot, sky and kate really teach me a lot alot... Thanks.
I met a guys here his name is ken, his my hairstylist. He give me a special feeling on him, and the final time i told him that i reliaze that i have feeling on him, the feeling was strong... And he told me that he had feeling on me too, that time was so happy when he told me that he had feeling on me too, but at last we also ended up. Because he lied to me... he ask me to forgive him, i do. But even i forgive him, i still feel down, so i told him about that! And at last he said want to ended up this relationship, because we're not suitable to be together. I answered him ok, because i can't do anything else with it. At night i went to hui san place and stay over there, i chat with alex and felix about him, and they told me not to think so much anymore. So i went to huisan brother room and take a nap, suddenly felix came to the room and ask me to leave, because huisan had a lot friends there, so got no place to sleep. Then i went to felix place, on the way to his place i only reliaze that i didn't take my phone, sigh!!! Then i call qing qing to help me find then keep it, in da morning i went huisan house, then she told me can't find my phone, i fcuking down when i heard that, everyone was helping me find, but still can't find. I am so upset about that, because my phone have a lot of important stuff..... and the same day ken break up with me, so in da afternoon i told my friend to fetch me back to kl, luckily i remebered his number, if not i have to take train to kl. =(

So after few days i on my msn, and i write in my pm there phone gone, bf gone... then chelim nudge me and said that now u-mobile had a promotion, register thier line then can get free phone, and then kengyu talked me on msn said that he got a guy friend wanted to intro to me, ask me whether that january 8 i free? So i say yes. I asked him what's his friend name? He said chelim, i was shocked, because so ngam he also in my msn list... I know kengyu was i'm 16 years old, hes a nice friends. So on that day they went to fetch me, and they use 1 in da half an hours to come my place, so stupid! Because they don't know the way, we went to cheras jusco greenbox, me<3, kengyu, chelim and his friends zhong zi(middle finger) HAHAHAHAAAAA!!!! =) Chelim give me the first image is so "si men", after finished so we fetch kengyu back, then chelim went back home to take something, and fetch the friend to work... I waited him at his place to fetch me after he done, when he are back i went to his room and watch movie, suddenly he tell me that he have feeling on me, shockeddd me... HAHAHAHA!!! Now i'am so hang fok... He treat me so nice, care of my feeling, and a lot a lot.... I LOVE HIM =)

Chelim+Limpy=Elaine<3

Lou Gong<3 You're always in my mind

2008-12-13T04:52:00.003+08:00

There are two enternities
that can really
break you down
Yesterday and Tommorrow
One is gone
and the other
... doesn't exist
... So live today

Dont Hurt Anyone
It only takes a few seconds
, to hurt people you love
but it can take years
!!! to heal

Marriage

Do not marry a person
that you know
; that you can live with
only marry someone
that you
!!!! cannot live without

! Money
Money can buy
everything
!! except happiness

!Trust

It takes years to build trust
but few seconds
!! to destroy it

Value

What is most valuable is not
what you have you in my life
but who you have in your life

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There's a place in your heart
And I know that it is love
And this place could be much
Brighter than tomorrow
And if you really try
You'll find there's no need to cry
In this place you'll feel
There's no hurt or sorrow

There are ways to get there
If you care enough for the living
Make a little space
Make a better place...

Heal the world
Make it a better place
For you and for me
And the entire human race
There are people dying
If you care enough for the living
Make a better place
For you and for me

If you want to know why
There's a love that cannot lie
Love is strong
It only cares of joyful giving
If we try we shall see
In this bliss we cannot feel
Fear or dread
We stop existing and start living

Then it feels that always
Love's enough for us growing
So make a better world
Make a better world...

Heal the world
Make it a better place
For you and for me
And the entire human race
There are people dying
If you care enough for the living
Make a better place
For you and for me

And the dream we were conceived in
Will reveal a joyful face
And the world we once believed in
Will shine again in grace
Then why do we keep strangling life
Wound this earth crucify its soul
Though it's plain to see
This world is heavenly
Be God's glow

We could fly so high
Let our spirits never die
In my heart
I feel you are all my brothers
Create a world with no fear Together we cry happy tears
See the nations turn their swords
Into plowshares

We could really get there
If you cared enough for the living
Make a little space
To make a better place...

Heal the world
Make it a better place
For you and for me
And the entire human race
There are people dying
If you care enough for the living
Make a better place
For you and for me

Heal the world
Make it a better place
For you and for me
And the entire human race
There are people dying
If you care enough for the living
Make a better place
For you and for me

Heal the world
Make it a better place
For you and for me
And the entire human race
There are people dying
If you care enough for the living
Make a better place
For you and for me

There are people dying
If you care enough for the living
Make a better place
For you and for me

There are people dying
If you care enough for the living
Make a better place
For you and for me

You and for me

==============================================================

Love Gives

Love ever
gives, forgives, outlives,
and ever stands
with open hands,
for while it lives, it gives.
For this is love's prerogative—
to give, and give,
and give."

Words

Words spoken
may soon pass away
and forgotten be,
But when spoken
in love and kindness,
are like beautiful flowers,
and even though
they fade and die
from conscious memory,
their fragrance lives on
embedded in the
deeper mind –
forever.

Love

Love, like a tree,
sends its roots down deep
so when the storms of life abound
and the winds of adversity blow,
it shakes and bends
and goes with the flow
but doesn't break or fall.

And during times of drought
it drives its roots down deeper
so whatever comes and goes—
summer, winter, spring, or fall,
the good times and the bad—
it stands the test of all.

Garden of My Heart

If every thought
I had of you
was a rose and
every rose a word,
I would keep
picking endless roses
from the garden
of my heart
And speak them
all to you.

Forget-Me-Not

You walked into my life
unexpectedly.
You smiled a gentle smile,
spoke a kind word,
and placed some
flowers in my hand–
an orchid and
forget-me-nots.
And then you left.
The flowers have
long since faded
but the fragrance of
your presence never will.
So be assured of this–
I will forget you not!

love love love

Fall For You-Secondhand Serenade

2008-12-06T01:35:00.007+08:00

December 3 - Back to single life

I only had my sleep at 9. 11a.m, carmen woke me up to prepare, then her friend dropped me off at darren house, darren was sleeping, so i call derrick to open the gate for me. Then i went in to darren room and lied down on his bed. i took his phone and checked his inbox and outbox, one of the msg made me feel so down, then i just don't think so much and take a nap, i dreamt bout something bad, it was really a nightmare. around 2p.m david came to darren house and fetch us out to makan in pyramid, ming hui and the cousin's is inside the car too. So when we reached pyramid ming hui say she wanted to eat japanese food, then we went to sakae sushi, but i was seriously broke so i told darren that i will eat in kim gary, he ask me with who, so i said alone, then i just walked off. around an hour i called him and asked where is he right now? he said he was accompanying his other friend eating right now! So i say enjoy to him, after awhile i called him again and asked him to come over to kim gary because i need to talk to him. He came to kim gary and he asked me what i want to talk to him? I said i think we have to settle down our problem, because our relationship have too much problem, talked till he ended with our relationship cannot work thing out so break up, he said we are from different kind of world, we are not suitable for each other. Then he said that hes studying and i am working we cannot spend time with each other. His close friend told me that maybe he is bored of me. His ego too high, eveytime suddenly shout on me, i always tolerate with him but no point. Hes still the same. When we fight my heart really feels pain. I'm willing to step my first to forgive him and willing to adapt with him. All i ever asked from him is to be nice and concern about me. Having a relationship is hard sweet and sometimes it is even bitter. I'm willing to sharing it all with him. DARREN, do you remember why is the first time we been together?
Continue, after that he text me and ask me to keep this msg: What i do now, is the best for the both of us.. We both are suffering from our own problems.. I can't bare to support us like this.. I'm just a normal teenager not a rich guy.. Your a smart gurl i know you know how to think and do what's right for yourself.. You just take care.. I'll be here as a friend if you need anything or anyone to talk to.. But as a couple? I don't think we can work out.. I'm sure you can notice by yourself.. Then he give me back my ring, and i give him back his bracelet, and just walked off. i went to the toilet and cant control my tears...

In 3 week time we having a lot of memory...

Asia Cafe, Sunway Pyramid, Racks, Genting, Ipoh, Club9, Bacerlona, Mos...
We cry for both of us in barcelona...
And a lot a lot memory...

i'm learning how to play the guitar with the song FALL FOR YOU...
First time you sing to me, and i promise you i will sing to you...
I promised you, and i wont break my promise.
First time i play guitar, and i hurt my hands.
I told you before i will prove to you how much i loved you and i will be the one the special someone in your life and i can sacrifice everything just for you DARREN KHOO TIONG LENG<3.

Emo.

2008-11-30T04:38:00.002+08:00

Darren khoo please don't so emo everytime, i don't hope that you're look so emo!!!!!

Our Love <3

2008-11-29T05:43:00.004+08:00

Today i feel like write something on my blog, something update, elaine's has boyfriends now. His called DARREN KHOO TIONG LENG, I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!!! 20th november 2008

DARREN KHOO TIONG LENG, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!DON'T EVER TRY TO HURT ME OKAY? BECAUSE I LOVE YOU SO I'LL GET HURT, I WONT FORGET ABOUT THAT NIGHT IN BARCELONA, OUR MEMORY... OUR LOVE<3 I MISS YOU EVERY SINGLE DAY, AND I LOVE YOU MORE THEN A BILLION WORDS, YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE I LOVE FROM NOW ON...

I LOVE YOU DARREN KHOO TIONG LENG <3

I LOVE YOU DARREN KHOO TIONG LENG <3

I LOVE YOU DARREN KHOO TIONG LENG <3

I LOVE YOU DARREN KHOO TIONG LENG <3

I LOVE YOU DARREN KHOO TIONG LENG <3

I LOVE YOU DARREN KHOO TIONG LENG <3

I LOVE YOU DARREN KHOO TIONG LENG <3

I LOVE YOU DARREN KHOO TIONG LENG <3

I LOVE YOU DARREN KHOO TIONG LENG <3

I LOVE YOU DARREN KHOO TIONG LENG <3

I LOVE YOU DARREN KHOO TIONG LENG <3

I LOVE YOU DARREN KHOO TIONG LENG <3

Shopping

2008-07-29T22:43:00.002+08:00

last few day i went to 1 utama, because had mega sales... and i bought clothes and pants...
And today i went to kepong jusco buy a glasses and wallet...

2008-07-29T21:25:00.003+08:00

Its been a long time i didn't blogging, let's memories back.....
june 14 i went to ns, it feel so sad feeling went i knew that have to go ns....
the first week over there is quite bored, and i cried everyday, BUT.... second week i never cry anymore, and i don't called my parents anymore. One thing so scary... i saw GHOSTS!!!! Then the second day i told jurulatih about that, then jurulatih bring us go meeting... In the moment we went to her room suddenly i saw a white thing in front of me, then i hold liwen hand and i told her i saw something white, in the moment i start crying, then i faint... !!!
My friend was worried about me, and they carry me to wad, everyone was crying, that night everyone cant slap properly... and two of my friend acompany me stay in wad the whole nights... The second day, chinese wira came to wad see me, they asking me what happen? but i just keep silent... I walk to medic, and doctor ask what happen again??? I told him whole story, and he just answer me is biasa sahaja... Even jurulatih told me the same thing...
Cigarattes they are so expensive, 20 stick is rm80... but i didn't bought it, because i bring cigarattes there, and have to hide properly, that so important... If not jurulatih caught, DIE!!! =(
I went there like 3 week plus then i came back, because i sick... but i like that place, i like friends there. They are so friendly and so kind....

Lonely and the sadness valentine day 2008

2008-02-14T04:39:00.000+08:00

Valentine i'am alone,planning go buy one cake and write there"happy valentine to me", then bring to cinema and watch movie alone... The valentine days...

Running off in front of you, do you know how painful is it?

2008-01-29T04:24:00.001+08:00

These day i really feel so mad, you making me piss off you...

You don't even care how is my feeling?

Only care about yourself, what would you done to me everytime i still forgiving you stay beside you, because what you know? I LOVE YOU.

Yesterday you screw me and i ran off, and i went to cyber. My heart damn painful, never tried before... Lucky have a birthday boy come and find me, but all i hope is you come to find me....

There is gonna turn into dark...

2008-01-07T17:28:00.000+08:00

That one thing important in my life, but is going to lost... Maybe it will coming back to my life agian or... maybe not, feel so bad right now!!! Just need someone chilling with me, the whole day, the whole night.... Need people to accompany me in this time.

Heard something from my friend, i really feel so mad...

New Year 2008

2008-01-02T21:30:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year 2008!!!

I delete my whole past story, i hope in 2008 it will be my most happy year not to remember the past... Hope that i can face everything that in my life. Quite a long time i never hang out with my friend, someday must gathering with them. Anyways have to go sleep now... TIRED!!! >.<

Elaine kok

累

对２０１０说再见 ！

我对自己说不要再想你... 但我还是做不到！我还以为时间可以冲淡一切，但好像一天总比一天更加的想你了。

"A dress that zips up the back will bring a husband and wife together."

I pray so hard .

遗憾，祝福。

Situation.

一篇男人看了會沉默旳文章

"i'll always be here whether you need me or not..

The day i went out.

emotion

这些话也许是你一生都在寻找的

Suppost to live without you.

All about life.

HOMA

Our Heart Belong Together..

Another day.

Crazy.

To be continue's.

Falling with someone

When a GIRL...

Tears.

Good news or bad news?

Apologize.

Goodbye to my love.

Lovin you

A story about a girl.

(:

The special one.

16th oct 09 - 16th nov 09.

A Vacation!

2nd days; Beautiful evening ♥

Third message to baby, baby your voice are so sweet until i got melted ♥

Second message to baby

Second message to baby, Baby i been thinking when can i meet you up again...?

1st day; i miss you and the memory set up in my mind 01/09/09

Wish I was your lover 2009-08-19T04:45:00.003+08:00 Though it will be fine, but np =(It's not worth it to cry, i will always remembered to be strong.

"Takin' Back My Love" - Enrique Iglesias feat. Ciara

E & E

=) & <3

(一厢情愿) Don't get your hopes up, he doesn't like you.

Love life

怜惜，才是最真挚的爱情

Silence

memory

Totally lost myself =(

My Life Would Suck Without You

Beloved

各位男生们,你们都听到女生的心声了吗?

There's was a nightmare

Sigh And Sigh Again =(

ALDO <3

One month anniversary

Hard and bitter (Fuck off my life) "BITCH" I hate you

Nothing else perfect

Perfectly

Think twice

What I've Done

Is the bad times coming soon again? Elaine said: I don't know

happiness

I feeling not well and feel so down

Misunderstanding

DOWN DOWN DOWN!!!

We're getting far...

End of the story

The Love

To:Chelim

说好的幸福呢？

Feelings come and go...

The Life

Lou Gong<3 You're always in my mind

Fall For You-Secondhand Serenade

Emo.

Our Love <3

Shopping

Lonely and the sadness valentine day 2008

Running off in front of you, do you know how painful is it?

There is gonna turn into dark...

New Year 2008

对２０１０说再见　！

Wish I was your lover
2009-08-19T04:45:00.003+08:00
Though it will be fine, but np =(
It's not worth it to cry, i will always remembered to be strong.